There is no worse pain
than wishing with every
fiber of your being
to find yourself nearer
to the one your heart seeks.
It’s been a while since I’ve written an actual post.
I have been insanely busy and tired, just going, going, going. Without boring you through all the details of my life over the past bit, i’ll get a bit more too the point.
I don’t have time to be upset about all of the things going wrong for me. It’s funny though; the only thing connecting every single area of upset, leads to my Nana. I love her, and appreciate her more than I can even begin to express, but GOD DAMN she is rude.
She has single-handedly brought me down to a place lower than I’ve been in years. Emotionally, I’m just as sad as I was back when I cut, purged, etc. I hae grown to hate myself more and more daily.
Luckily, though, I do have some really great support right now.
My friends Aurora and Raechel:
They are backing me 100% and just knowing I have their support is wonderful. We goof on, and make extremely attractive face swaps, but on a serious note- I know that they are the type of people you are life-long friends with.
Also, I have a THE most fantastic girlfriend in the world.
Jessica shows me how important I am to her, she may not feel like she says much, but from my perspective, she has completely changed my self image. I’m absolutely crazy about her. With her and I, it is non-stop laughs and smiles. I wouldn’t trade her for the world… and even though the odds are against us, i want her to be my forever<3
I can’t handle how perfect she is for me… SO AMAZED<3
when I think about the fact that I’m her’s: